who really care ?

Today suppose to be a nice day,
and yet i'm happy until this morning,
after add math exam,
i'm still happy.
finally trials over and i feel good - relax
still in a good mood after school
cause i get my add math2 result.
satisfy with it.

nightmare came,
reached home,
my mother called.
she love comparing,
here and there,
from ur toes to hair ;
from physical to studies ;
she's TOO OVER i tell you.
i cant stand her . seriously her words really hit my heart.

here's example.
when u tell her ur result :
perhaps ur mark is 99,
she will tell u : what ? only 99 ? who's the highest then!! you or ... ? somebody else ?
perhaps ur mark is 95 ,
she will keep asking : who's highest ?!! who's highest ??!!! your fren that one get how many ar ?
perhaps ur mark is 90 ,
she will say : oh, you'r the highest mer ? ur fren xxx how many oh ? why they can get higher than u ?
perhaps you get only A2 :
she will giv u respond or sometimes not : mayb she will answer "oh ok." *den turn back continue her stuffs* feels like talking to me is wasting time.
perhaps u get a only B3 or B4 :
she start grumbling : why you dint study well ar ? watch tv la. ask u study dont want study. ppl can get high marks why u cant !
perhaps u're unlucky just get a ngam ngam pass :
and tat's end of your world, you'r prove to be fail in that particular subject in her mind.
unless you can get an A for at least 2 times to prove that you're smart actually. sigh~

She's fair,
brother sometimes get not bad result in college,
she treat him the same way , fair right ?
Not say we're greedy or proud to get good result and required for a simple praising from parents ,
those words will make you get a better result and act as inspiration for you to keep going in studies.
isn't that so difficult to make them say : "Waw, not bad ya. keep it on dear. i'm proud of you." Although it's simple but it do simply make up your day.
i hope they would praise me although just a simple few words.
but fact is fact. they dont .
it's ok.
mayb you guys tot i'm sensitive but that kind of feeling, it's hurt.
it sometimes make me feel some kind,
that mayb i could just get a normal result,
don't study so hard, just a simple B or nearly A.
bcz their respond alwayx the same,
got respond = no respond .
Better than you get a really good result,
hopes to be praised but ended up with a bad mood.

While i think it's the same for some of the parents,
cant blame but i don't like the feeling.
I seriously doesn't feel good with those *compare* words.
I'm sad.
my tears dropping while writting this post.
I really wanna know
why every parents is the same .. ?
mayb they are not wrong.
She hopes for the best.
But your effort behind it, who cares !!!
no-one cared about your stupid bloody hard work.
those who sleep less than 4hours a day, STUPID!
they wont appreciate. DAMNIT!
they wants the result.
with tat you're everything,
if not you're just nothing .

The feeling of my day :

seriously in bad mood.