huh,
i'm getting nottier ;
always slept very late oh.
Hehe, what to do.
no ppl bother what time i sleep also :P
all sleep like pig now and i'm still on9 here,
bro stayed in hospital acc his gf.
yor how sweet.
But this made my parents headache jor.
for some reasons *keep it private*
haiz. my panda eyes gonna appear again.
hrm. now is 3.20am i'm still awake here.
watching korean drama through youtube :D
YES YES i wanna study.
gimme some inspiration to study pls.
hope so . .
du du du/
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
who really care ?
Today suppose to be a nice day,
and yet i'm happy until this morning,
after add math exam,
i'm still happy.
finally trials over and i feel good - relax
still in a good mood after school
cause i get my add math2 result.
satisfy with it.
nightmare came,
reached home,
my mother called.
she love comparing,
here and there,
from ur toes to hair ;
from physical to studies ;
she's TOO OVER i tell you.
i cant stand her . seriously her words really hit my heart.
here's example.
when u tell her ur result :
perhaps ur mark is 99,
she will tell u : what ? only 99 ? who's the highest then!! you or ... ? somebody else ?
perhaps ur mark is 95 ,
she will keep asking : who's highest ?!! who's highest ??!!! your fren that one get how many ar ?
perhaps ur mark is 90 ,
she will say : oh, you'r the highest mer ? ur fren xxx how many oh ? why they can get higher than u ?
perhaps you get only A2 :
she will giv u respond or sometimes not : mayb she will answer "oh ok." *den turn back continue her stuffs* feels like talking to me is wasting time.
perhaps u get a only B3 or B4 :
she start grumbling : why you dint study well ar ? watch tv la. ask u study dont want study. ppl can get high marks why u cant !
perhaps u're unlucky just get a ngam ngam pass :
and tat's end of your world, you'r prove to be fail in that particular subject in her mind.
unless you can get an A for at least 2 times to prove that you're smart actually. sigh~
She's fair,
brother sometimes get not bad result in college,
she treat him the same way , fair right ?
Not say we're greedy or proud to get good result and required for a simple praising from parents ,
those words will make you get a better result and act as inspiration for you to keep going in studies.
isn't that so difficult to make them say : "Waw, not bad ya. keep it on dear. i'm proud of you." Although it's simple but it do simply make up your day.
i hope they would praise me although just a simple few words.
but fact is fact. they dont .
it's ok.
mayb you guys tot i'm sensitive but that kind of feeling, it's hurt.
it sometimes make me feel some kind,
that mayb i could just get a normal result,
don't study so hard, just a simple B or nearly A.
bcz their respond alwayx the same,
got respond = no respond .
Better than you get a really good result,
hopes to be praised but ended up with a bad mood.
While i think it's the same for some of the parents,
cant blame but i don't like the feeling.
I seriously doesn't feel good with those *compare* words.
I'm sad.
my tears dropping while writting this post.
I really wanna know
why every parents is the same .. ?
mayb they are not wrong.
She hopes for the best.
But your effort behind it, who cares !!!
no-one cared about your stupid bloody hard work.
those who sleep less than 4hours a day, STUPID!
they wont appreciate. DAMNIT!
they wants the result.
with tat you're everything,
if not you're just nothing .
and yet i'm happy until this morning,
after add math exam,
i'm still happy.
finally trials over and i feel good - relax
still in a good mood after school
cause i get my add math2 result.
satisfy with it.
nightmare came,
reached home,
my mother called.
she love comparing,
here and there,
from ur toes to hair ;
from physical to studies ;
she's TOO OVER i tell you.
i cant stand her . seriously her words really hit my heart.
here's example.
when u tell her ur result :
perhaps ur mark is 99,
she will tell u : what ? only 99 ? who's the highest then!! you or ... ? somebody else ?
perhaps ur mark is 95 ,
she will keep asking : who's highest ?!! who's highest ??!!! your fren that one get how many ar ?
perhaps ur mark is 90 ,
she will say : oh, you'r the highest mer ? ur fren xxx how many oh ? why they can get higher than u ?
perhaps you get only A2 :
she will giv u respond or sometimes not : mayb she will answer "oh ok." *den turn back continue her stuffs* feels like talking to me is wasting time.
perhaps u get a only B3 or B4 :
she start grumbling : why you dint study well ar ? watch tv la. ask u study dont want study. ppl can get high marks why u cant !
perhaps u're unlucky just get a ngam ngam pass :
and tat's end of your world, you'r prove to be fail in that particular subject in her mind.
unless you can get an A for at least 2 times to prove that you're smart actually. sigh~
She's fair,
brother sometimes get not bad result in college,
she treat him the same way , fair right ?
Not say we're greedy or proud to get good result and required for a simple praising from parents ,
those words will make you get a better result and act as inspiration for you to keep going in studies.
isn't that so difficult to make them say : "Waw, not bad ya. keep it on dear. i'm proud of you." Although it's simple but it do simply make up your day.
i hope they would praise me although just a simple few words.
but fact is fact. they dont .
it's ok.
mayb you guys tot i'm sensitive but that kind of feeling, it's hurt.
it sometimes make me feel some kind,
that mayb i could just get a normal result,
don't study so hard, just a simple B or nearly A.
bcz their respond alwayx the same,
got respond = no respond .
Better than you get a really good result,
hopes to be praised but ended up with a bad mood.
While i think it's the same for some of the parents,
cant blame but i don't like the feeling.
I seriously doesn't feel good with those *compare* words.
I'm sad.
my tears dropping while writting this post.
I really wanna know
why every parents is the same .. ?
mayb they are not wrong.
She hopes for the best.
But your effort behind it, who cares !!!
no-one cared about your stupid bloody hard work.
those who sleep less than 4hours a day, STUPID!
they wont appreciate. DAMNIT!
they wants the result.
with tat you're everything,
if not you're just nothing .
The feeling of my day :
seriously in bad mood.
Monday, September 14, 2009
it worth to sleep less =)
yo!
slept an hour fer last time,
this time burning for physic ,
i knew it's amaze thou,
bcz my frens know I hate physic THE MOST.
watever,
I did it.
but still. -hard-
haha. nvm. chill.
Ohyea. good news. tml is my subject, add math.
although i'm not counted as pro in this subj ;
but i really love it, among all subjs.
^_________^
okay i will be prepared for that.
After trial is HOLIDAYS!
screaming from heart!!!
ha, superb good news for me,
after being tortured by trial for almost a month. sigh~
gonna be insane. 3 days sleep for only 6+ hours.
I used to sleep 8 hours a day last time , but now.. :'(
dont mention ady.
ahah..today feel so dizzy after wake up, heartbeat rate increase after drank cup of coffee last night. effect of coffeine. no appetite.
mummy damn worried about me,
keep asking whether i'm ok anot . ha, she wants to cancel my tuition.
but i refused ! I want to go tuition :)
no wasting money uh =P *but i skipped some of tuitions during trials also la*
hehe.
Lol.
my stomach's alarm clock ring again.
i think i gonna take some foods :D
if not feel sorry to my stomach.
bye ~
slept an hour fer last time,
this time burning for physic ,
i knew it's amaze thou,
bcz my frens know I hate physic THE MOST.
watever,
I did it.
but still. -hard-
haha. nvm. chill.
Ohyea. good news. tml is my subject, add math.
although i'm not counted as pro in this subj ;
but i really love it, among all subjs.
^_________^
okay i will be prepared for that.
After trial is HOLIDAYS!
screaming from heart!!!
ha, superb good news for me,
after being tortured by trial for almost a month. sigh~
gonna be insane. 3 days sleep for only 6+ hours.
I used to sleep 8 hours a day last time , but now.. :'(
dont mention ady.
ahah..today feel so dizzy after wake up, heartbeat rate increase after drank cup of coffee last night. effect of coffeine. no appetite.
mummy damn worried about me,
keep asking whether i'm ok anot . ha, she wants to cancel my tuition.
but i refused ! I want to go tuition :)
no wasting money uh =P *but i skipped some of tuitions during trials also la*
hehe.
Lol.
my stomach's alarm clock ring again.
i think i gonna take some foods :D
if not feel sorry to my stomach.
bye ~
Feeling of the day ♥
HAPPY + HAPPY !
♥ you ♥ you ♥ you
my dear family
you completed my life ♥
Sunday, September 13, 2009
♥ My day *today and yesterday*
My day --> don't really feel good for today.
Chemistry paper 1 & 2.
Not so easy ,
can considered as difficult .
I blank some of the question ,
I tried to squeeze my brain but nothing can related to the ques, haha~
Den give up duh .
After teacher collected the paper,
comments all about "hard right !?" "hard ler TT" "die le my chem!" "fail!" "omg ! " "hard anot la?" "sei lo, essay blank all" "my structure dunno how to do wei!"
BUT ! dont get cheated by them. their result will give u a BIG SHOCK ! :D
they will definitely passed with a flying colours.
this is how I describe my class la.. * ^^v *
Tomorrow is Physic , second last paper, teehee =D glad thou.
I mean because is the second last paper,
bcz I'm not interested in PHY at all.
well things tat i'm glad of is last day is my fav sub - add math.
hope can score well for that , bless me ya.
Den what i wanna say uh .. ?
hrm ~ after trial I wanna go out relax my exhausted mind :P
craving to have a shopping , anyone available ?
haha currently looking for new dress o.O
Let's talk bout yesterday,
we went port Klang for seafoods , yes AGAIN LOL!
this time got many ppl joining also.
it spend us about 300+
same reaction "wow"
haha..
Later fetch bro's gf back Rawang,
around 10+pm only reached home lo.
Now my aunty staying in my house,
she's baba nyonya, my grandma's sister.
Yes dun envy ! her cooking is freaking nice.
Much more more more better than any 5stars chef.
This is the reason why i'm fat when i was in primary,
bcz my grandma cooked everyday, 5 meals per day. she's also baba nyonya.
but she passed away when i was std 6. :(
no more nice foods lo.
C=
october I think will back to primary school once,
got a function there,
hopes meeting old, lovable frens.
They all turns to prince and princess lu =)
miss you guys madly. =(
Chemistry paper 1 & 2.
Not so easy ,
can considered as difficult .
I blank some of the question ,
I tried to squeeze my brain but nothing can related to the ques, haha~
Den give up duh .
After teacher collected the paper,
comments all about "hard right !?" "hard ler TT" "die le my chem!" "fail!" "omg ! " "hard anot la?" "sei lo, essay blank all" "my structure dunno how to do wei!"
BUT ! dont get cheated by them. their result will give u a BIG SHOCK ! :D
they will definitely passed with a flying colours.
this is how I describe my class la.. * ^^v *
Tomorrow is Physic , second last paper, teehee =D glad thou.
I mean because is the second last paper,
bcz I'm not interested in PHY at all.
well things tat i'm glad of is last day is my fav sub - add math.
hope can score well for that , bless me ya.
Den what i wanna say uh .. ?
hrm ~ after trial I wanna go out relax my exhausted mind :P
craving to have a shopping , anyone available ?
haha currently looking for new dress o.O
Let's talk bout yesterday,
we went port Klang for seafoods , yes AGAIN LOL!
this time got many ppl joining also.
it spend us about 300+
same reaction "wow"
haha..
Later fetch bro's gf back Rawang,
around 10+pm only reached home lo.
Now my aunty staying in my house,
she's baba nyonya, my grandma's sister.
Yes dun envy ! her cooking is freaking nice.
Much more more more better than any 5stars chef.
This is the reason why i'm fat when i was in primary,
bcz my grandma cooked everyday, 5 meals per day. she's also baba nyonya.
but she passed away when i was std 6. :(
no more nice foods lo.
C=
october I think will back to primary school once,
got a function there,
hopes meeting old, lovable frens.
They all turns to prince and princess lu =)
miss you guys madly. =(
The word of the day :D
GOOD LUCK IN REMAINING EXAM.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
countdown for 3 more days =P
today is my history paper.
I did put a big effort on it.
I only slept for 1 and half hours last night just bcz of this.
so everything is going fine :) *hope so*
I completed my answer by 2 n half hours, dint waste every single seconds :P
but frankly speaking my history have never enought time to rest want la.
no idea why it happened. same to add math also.
no time for double checking,
but i'm the one who're so careless uh.
*mou ngan tai*
Hrm , my nex paper is chem 1 & 2.
ha, but as long today is friday ,
I wouldn't pressure myself studying like mad :)
sometimes pampared ourself is good ya.
aiyar,
after trial i would enjoy few days first only continue with my war *spm* :D
I did put a big effort on it.
I only slept for 1 and half hours last night just bcz of this.
so everything is going fine :) *hope so*
I completed my answer by 2 n half hours, dint waste every single seconds :P
but frankly speaking my history have never enought time to rest want la.
no idea why it happened. same to add math also.
no time for double checking,
but i'm the one who're so careless uh.
*mou ngan tai*
Hrm , my nex paper is chem 1 & 2.
ha, but as long today is friday ,
I wouldn't pressure myself studying like mad :)
sometimes pampared ourself is good ya.
aiyar,
after trial i would enjoy few days first only continue with my war *spm* :D
so hopes nothing will bothered me right now.
I don't want to be in bad mood.
I hate myself for being emo.
so wish all the best to me.
And I love you friends !
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Final Destination
last saturday daddy and mummy went for dinner,
they forced me to go but i refused.
i don't like sitting there like stone, haha ~
I'm alwayz hyper active =P
While i'm doin my revision for trial,
bro suddenly called me and asked me for movie.
Den I say ok without thinking twice cause i love to watch movies in cinema :D
he watched with his frens also,
just pulling my out seeing me so pity alone at home, ha!
He told me we're watching Final Destination.
I'm wondering wat kind of movie is that cause nvr heard tat be4.
Only then i know it was a horror movie , = . =
So this is the first time i watched my first horror movie in cinema.
It's consider not so scary as i tot. :D
Lol. the effect is so fake .
haha.
The movie started at 930pm ended at 11pm.
And this is the first time I went cinema at night~ duh~~
And today is my biology paper 1 & 2.
not so hard as i tot,
start regreting why i dint prepared.
But anyways, is just trial~
good luck for my comin spm :D
they forced me to go but i refused.
i don't like sitting there like stone, haha ~
I'm alwayz hyper active =P
While i'm doin my revision for trial,
bro suddenly called me and asked me for movie.
Den I say ok without thinking twice cause i love to watch movies in cinema :D
he watched with his frens also,
just pulling my out seeing me so pity alone at home, ha!
He told me we're watching Final Destination.
I'm wondering wat kind of movie is that cause nvr heard tat be4.
Only then i know it was a horror movie , = . =
So this is the first time i watched my first horror movie in cinema.
It's consider not so scary as i tot. :D
Lol. the effect is so fake .
haha.
The movie started at 930pm ended at 11pm.
And this is the first time I went cinema at night~ duh~~
And today is my biology paper 1 & 2.
not so hard as i tot,
start regreting why i dint prepared.
But anyways, is just trial~
good luck for my comin spm :D
sometimes ;
I will be frustrated,
wondering
who's going to
support
and
pull me up
when i'm
falling down :)
i'm still waiting.
the right person who
hold my hand
and say
" I do "
BUT
even thou time flies ;
I hardly erase "those" memories ;
until I fall to another person.
♥
Monday, September 7, 2009
love me do
"如果我们现在还在一起会是怎样
我们是不是还是深爱着对方 像开始时那样
握着手就算天快亮
我们现在还在一起会是怎样
我们是不是还是隐瞒着对方
像结束时那样
明知道你没有错
还硬要我原谅"
这歌词勾起了一些回忆 :)
什么是爱情？
忘了。。。
它已经从不想变不需要
今天不是很会做add math。
慌了。
明天的biology。
没希望。 :(
我们是不是还是深爱着对方 像开始时那样
握着手就算天快亮
我们现在还在一起会是怎样
我们是不是还是隐瞒着对方
像结束时那样
明知道你没有错
还硬要我原谅"
这歌词勾起了一些回忆 :)
什么是爱情？
忘了。。。
它已经从不想变不需要
今天不是很会做add math。
慌了。
明天的biology。
没希望。 :(
Friday, September 4, 2009
thumb ups = ) thumb downs = (
Sorry I know I'm getting lazier to update my blog because as you know currently form5 students are having their spm trials,
everything should be prepared by now because trials telling u that spm is around the corner,
and it's getting nearer,nearer, nearer BUH! =P
why time passed just like that *meaningless*, I haven enjoyed the process of form5 and now you're tell me i'm gonna set free from skul life ?
Actually I love my skul life bcz friends do cheer up my day easily while others cant do it,
but the only thing that made me fed up of skul is the exam *sob*
What else can cheer me up from that *exam mood*, no-one I know, nvm, just talking and answering myself. that will made me feel better . hehe C=
OKAY, now we are moving to the 2nd week of exam,
today is friday so I suppose to give myself a enough est to enable Jess to moves on and fight with the exam again.
so i'm not going to touch any books today, book-off and so i'm here to blog ;P
My parents just came back from matta fair to survey whr to go after my spm, teehee ~
but I'm kinda excited when they mentioned *after SPM*
because after SPM I will start a new life again in college,
new friends, new environment, new faces, new books...etc everythings are NEW for me.
But the main things I wanna do after spm is I would like to do something that I never dare to do be4 thar *wink* I will try new things, bla bla.
ROLLAR COASTER! SUNWAY LAGOON! SHOPPING MALL! stand still and wait for me ya. wait me for 2months only ;D
Lol. okay, I'm drinking orange juice right now, yummm~
gtg la.
byeeeee
p/s :
jY you are funnay, dear yeng sure hands up agree. hou sai lei.
everything should be prepared by now because trials telling u that spm is around the corner,
and it's getting nearer,nearer, nearer BUH! =P
why time passed just like that *meaningless*, I haven enjoyed the process of form5 and now you're tell me i'm gonna set free from skul life ?
Actually I love my skul life bcz friends do cheer up my day easily while others cant do it,
but the only thing that made me fed up of skul is the exam *sob*
What else can cheer me up from that *exam mood*, no-one I know, nvm, just talking and answering myself. that will made me feel better . hehe C=
OKAY, now we are moving to the 2nd week of exam,
today is friday so I suppose to give myself a enough est to enable Jess to moves on and fight with the exam again.
so i'm not going to touch any books today, book-off and so i'm here to blog ;P
My parents just came back from matta fair to survey whr to go after my spm, teehee ~
but I'm kinda excited when they mentioned *after SPM*
because after SPM I will start a new life again in college,
new friends, new environment, new faces, new books...etc everythings are NEW for me.
But the main things I wanna do after spm is I would like to do something that I never dare to do be4 thar *wink* I will try new things, bla bla.
ROLLAR COASTER! SUNWAY LAGOON! SHOPPING MALL! stand still and wait for me ya. wait me for 2months only ;D
Lol. okay, I'm drinking orange juice right now, yummm~
gtg la.
byeeeee
p/s :
jY you are funnay, dear yeng sure hands up agree. hou sai lei.
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